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Friday

Happy birthday Karen ((: Hope you had a great time celebrating your birthday with your family. I felt so badddd. I forgot that i had camp and i promised estee to study with her, zomg then i totally wasted her time sorry ): Hahah, rushed for church camp

Sunday

Back from camp, damn tired and all. I just deleted the whole lot of stuff about church :/ I dknow what to say now, i just got hold of a piece of terrible news. Stay strong, we’re here for you. So many things happened, and im quite lost as to what to do. Disturbed, pissed and everything argh. Going to school is a :/ Going to church is another :/ though im trying not to feel this way. Sigh, going to school seriously pissed me off. Seeing things which i do not really want to see and all. Schhhhhoooooooooooooolsucksssssssss ttm. Whereever i go just really :/ now.

Anw, i can’t believe we handover-ed already. Time flies, the next thing i know i’ll be leaving Stnicks. It’s good to leave the place anyway, i guess.

Everyone is so superficial, everywhere

I must really rememeber today’s date. SO MANY things happened. Never in my life so many things happened at one go. It is not just what happened in the late afternoon but yeah. I wanted to just sleep but i had to organize the things in my brain so im like typing it out (i know it sounds really retarded but yeah).

I had manymany different feelings today. In the morning i went excited and super high before handover and maybe after. During recess i was very tired, irritated and then pissed. And after recess, more pissed off. After that talked to leong and felt much better after forgetting. Went back to class and had a weird feeling. And then tired again. Afternoon was very much a big bang. I realised that leong and i had so many misunderstandings since sec 2 that we didn’t clear up. I realised that she actually understands me and we havew quite alot of similar feelings about stuff. Today, i blew her away. (According to what she says) Because i told her ALOT of my stuff. She told me alot also i guess haha. We talk damn alot. This is why im not studying now HAHA, actually i can but im really tired now :/

ALOOOOOOOOOT of things happened zomg. I’m having mixed feelings now about different things. Alot of things have been happening recently which is kinda making me turn a little mad and hating school at the same time. Now i have the fear of returning home some times :/ I scared i see a certain someone near home. Anw, to you know who. WE REALLY DO CARE FOR YOU OKAY. You will never walk alone. We are here to help you. And im dead serious about this.

HAH i just realised. My face was really super black recess and after recess. Maybe you were lucky and you didn’t see my damn sianz face. Stupid huiyi pok, i wanted to tell you sth yknow and you went to sit with your friends and they came staring at me AGAIN. Anw,

DON’T FEEL STRESSED OUT OR WHATEVER OKAY. ANW, I GOT THINK OF YOU ONE YOU KNOW THOUGH IT DOESN’T SEEM LIKE I AM HAHAHA. AREN’T YOU LIKE TOUCHED? haiyo, you seems more stressed out then me. I’m not counting down so i don’t feel stressed cause i don’t want to. YOU AH, sec 2 don’t feel stressed out lah okay? Try not to, it’s bad for health. And you’re getting uglier cause you’re sleeping late everytime! HAIYOOOOOOOOOOO. Hee, you messaged me in the morning today : D sorry i didn’t reply causethe handover gonna start soon. I walked damn fast cause i had only 10 minutes to change ): In the end i was late HAHAHA. whee <3 bye

I want to go to school, yet i don’t want to

Say im nice now, she wanted this picture cause she looks nice. LOOK AT MY HAIR ):

Whee, lublub angel <3 2nd mortal, ESTEE POK (:

The seniors came back today: Xunning, Erica and Estee (: Had a great time together with Joanne for a while (: Was retrieving my ball from the field and when i was walking back, i thought i saw someone oddly familiar. ZOMG ABBY. Haha she did say she was coming back actually, i just realised. Oh, she’ll be in school tomorrow lah but im sure she’ll go with somebody else (: HAHA, must tell her the sad news. Maybe it’s great news to her, HAHA.

Esteeee is damn spastic. Anw, we were taking pictures at the bus stop and people were staring at us cause there were damn alot of people ><. Anw, she says im damn scandal ——.——- IM NOT. I think she’s just jealous :] CAUSE SHE LOVES ME ALOT ALOT (: Haiyo, last time got your winnie. No need to jealous of my so called scandals la HAHAHA. Oh well, damnnn long never see them. Was so happy today (((:

AMTH PAPER WAS ZZZZZZZ, If im going to do the paper like that i tell olevels fail man. NEVER REVISE ZOMG )):<  Okay, needa mug literature now (my ultimate worse subject). SEEEEEEEEEYOUUUUUU laterrrrrrr

tsktsk, estee slacking ah. WHAT ARE YOU DOING ONLINE HUR. HAHAH I KNOW YOU ARE GONNA READ THIS SOOOOO….

ESSSSSSSSTEEEEEEEE SOOOOOOO DUMBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB HAHAHAHHA

HAHAHA. BYEEEEEEEEE im damn hungry ): I never eat lunch yknowwww ): Meimei is starving

P.S. My sister is more excited than me about prom. She looks as though she is going for the prom instead HAHA. Damn retarded. Oh and Xunning says i changed (: More mature and i know she actually means (IM PRETTIER HOHOHOH : D)

zaijian

I’m a little annoyed now because THE GETAI PEOPLE DAMN LOUD. Forget it ): I should respect it and try to blast my music so i won’t hear all the singing and try and do my work.

I received 2 tremendous news today. I’m terribly shocked by both. One in which im still deciding whether i should go and i don’t even know why i received it, and the other, ZOMG. Totally freaked me out :/ Well, im just gonna ignore yeah yongmei.

Anw, received like two of my marks today. According to Eeshan honey, i got - B3 for physics ))):< HAHAHA, i should be happy actually from the huge improvement but aiyah. WTH I GOT B3 FOR CHEMISTRY LEH. I regret not studying for that test. PANGGGGGGSAIIIIIIIII 68.2 ))):< Because i got like 22/40 for the test which i totally didn’t understand the topic. HAHAH, nevermind lah. Aye, my PPR is terribly screwed. HAHAHA IT’S WORSE THAN TERM 3 BY A FEW POINTS I THINK. SHIT HAHAH. Whatever man, im not gonna care at the moment.

BTW, freeperiod was damn cool with the people not taking chinese in my class. YEAHMAN HAHAA, talk about isabelle with bright pink shorts, liqing with grey shorts and shu flashing everything underneath. Okay it sounds sick but no, we didnt like lift up our skirts lah okay. That’s like damn primary school HAHA.

I’m dreading tomorrow. School is only fun with Melissa’s lame jokes and Priscilla’s funny stuff. Not with the rest suaning me everysingleday ))))):< YOU HEAR THAT YUEXIU AND KAREN. Not funny yknow ))): BOO all of you. ONE DAY, ONE DAY, WHEN I BECOME SUANING QUEEN I WILL SUAN YOU ALL UNTIL YOU BEG ME TO STOP MWHAHAHAHA. HAHAHAHAH, okay im quite sure that’s impossible )): But must always look on the bright side of life! : D okay, who am i cheating ): Bleh, fate school ttm because —– BOOOOOOOOOOOOM

I’m really really x10000 dreading school tomorrow ):

Limits. I obey the Hooke’s Law. Sheez, im getting fedup with more people ): But i don’t tell anyone HAHA, depends on situation. Grrrrrrrrrr, meimei’s turning honkersbonkers wonkeydonkey ):

True

I received two of my results, couldn’t believe my eyes :/ School was better in one aspect, which im not gonna mention because the meaning is quite ambiguous. Still, it was really really terrible actually.

I’m gonna mug super hard now, after completing physics homework which i totally enjoy as compared to studying for history.

CAN THE GETAI PEOPLE JUST SHUTUP. STOP HELLOING AND TESTING THE MIKE CAUSE WE ALL CAN HEAR YOU! YOUR VOICE’S SO ANNOYING.

Ihateyou, right now right here.

I need to open up but i can’t seem to tell anyone anything. Even putting all these in words on my blog and making it private for myself to read is also hard. Damn it, there’s this horrible thing stuck here for damn long already. I’m really getting super annoyed. School has been so terrible, more and more and more terrible. Seriously nothing that i can look forward. All i have to withstand is stupid nonsense every single day.

People have limits. I can just sit there and keep quiet and just pretend i don’t feel anything as to what you do and say to me. Why am i so affected by you? You’re not even someone who concern about me. I’m getting sick and tired of all this stupid crap. I get sick and tired of seeing you everyday in school, sick and tired of going home where everything is so crashed up. Do you even call it in a family in the first place? I’m sick and tired of going to church sometimes because like what the priest said, im one of those who don’t feel a sense of belonging in church. It’s not that i don’t believe yknow, i dkonw how to put it whatever. The only thing that makes me more happy is that my cathechist actually cares about what’s going on in my family and he wants to help me. And that really touches me when he sends me message of care and concern. Anw, he was the man that was taking the school photographs, yknow the one that ran around when we were saying pledge and everything in his bright orange shirt. Haha yeah. Other than that, i don’t know what im doing in church in the first place. People who REALLY know me, know that im not as hyper as i usually am in church. I’m like quiet when im in church. Then again, i’m not very close to any of my church friends. They are more like close to each other. Maybe it’s because im the only sec 4 there and the rest of them are sec3s. Whatever. I really do feel bad that im feeling this way if anyone will believe me. I haven’t been praying at all, i’ve lost it suddenly. I dknow.

I think i’ve really changed like a bit. I’ve become more mean nowdays, normally i don’t get pissed with people :/ And i don’t know why im also pissed with her and another person. Zomg, yongmei get a life.

Damn annoyed. Why can’t i just sit still and study without getting all restless and distracted. Yknow what, i haven’t studied a single shit for history which is on tuesday. I tried to take a nap so that i can don’t sleep tonight and mug but i couldn’t sleep for long cause i keep thinking about the mocktest. ARGH, screw yourself yongmei. At this rate i’m going, i can just forget about getting a b3 for humanities cause i haven’t been studying for it ): ARGHHHHHHHHH, i can’t even sit still nowwwww and im getting tired and i know i won’t be able to sleep cause i keep thinking about the test!!!!!! ZOMG, marietta i know what you mean now. AM I STRESSED? I DKNOW RAH this is bad bad. Scream yongmei scream. I’m still damn annoyed with that — ):< SCHOOL IS AWFUL TO THE ULTIMATE. GOING SCHOOL IS A DREAD, A DREAD!!!!!!! there’s nothing to look forward to nowadays )))))))): I usually entertain myself, with melissa entertaining me too. I don’t like staying in class, i really don’t like CAUSE ———– arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. It’s different matter from the —– )):<

IM GONNA SING. IM GONNA SING IM GONNA SING, IM GONNA SHOUT AND SCREAM. Idiot dickson lai. He said that the people downstairs will understand cause they’ll treat it as 7th month singing, RAHHHHHH KILLLLLYOUUUUUUU HAHAAAAA, but that made me laugh aleeeeetle bit.

ROAAAAAAAAAAR SING YONGMEI SING, THEN YOU MSN FOREVER AND FAIL MAN, ROARRRRRRRRR )):<

You’rethecauseforthis. mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnshooooooooooootyouuuuu))))))): pokepokepoke. ROAR

I’mnotgoingtocareanymore. If you don’t appreciate then i’m not gonna care too.

What’s with school these days

Go to my lj and you’ll know what i mean: http://ponylittlestar.livejournal.com (I have like 2 blogs HAHA. Whee, i don’t really care.)

Well look at what leong posted! You must be madddddooo

I see a BIG BIG ‘LEONG’!
I’m happy for us all!
And yong, at the rate you’re going, you’re definitely a 6pointer!
So much for DSA!

How can i be 6pointer when i scored B3 for chinese! HAHAH, maybe all of you look at my better subjects, which is my maths and sciences. HAIYO NEVER LOOK AT MY ENGLISH AND HUMANITIES. I’m currently struggling with them. Which then leads to….

ORAL WAS DAMN ….screwed. What kind of stupid question is that?? And what stupid answer.

Examiner1: Describe one place of natural attraction that you’ve been to (sth like that)

Me: (shit shit, never go any place that have like natural scenery) I’m not as privileged as other students who are able to travel during school holidays and visit places of natural attractions. However, i’ve seen pictures of natural places such as The Great Wall of China. I think it’s really amazing…..(blabbers for a while) *pauses

Wait sorry! Great wall of China ISN’T a natural attraction!

Examiner 2: Smiles in a really friendly way.

DAMNDAMNDAMNDAMN, lost damn alot of marks. Total loser ttm zomg ): SHE HAD TO FILL INTHE WORDS FOR ME CAN. AND I READ UNTIL CRAP CAUSE I WAS DAMN NERVOUS AND THE PICTURE GOT NOTHING TO SAY. Anw, COACH YVONNE WAS IN THAT PICTURE HAHHAA. Shit, did damn badly. Rahhhhh, huiyi i won’t fail but i need B333333 ): I think i’ll get like C5, if have hope then B4 )):< My english is not very good so i have to do well for written.

Mrs tan smsed me to ask about oral ): Somehow i felt that i let her down cause she’s been teaching all those stuff but i couldn’t apply it during oral. I did it during prelims but not when im supposed to be at the peak of my performance :/ NEVERMIND YONGMEI YOU TRIED YOUR BEST. Stupid wenyi ah, lying on the wall didn’t help at all can ): Rah.

Physics was quite :///////// I hope i can score well though i got like stucked at mcq already???!!!!

Okay whatever lah, i got 1/7 for Social studies. HAHAHA they marked the last question for SBQ and it was damn hard. Apparently, im not the lowest this time cause people got ZERO hahaha. Quite a handful got zero and more got only one. HAHAH. Walao, that’s like the test that i managed to study finish everything and come out MCQ. RAHHHHHHHHH hahahah.

Whee okay go yongmei. Studying at the library so efficient and like, coke is like coffee to me. Okay studying feels damn good nowadays. I’m falling abit in love with it suddenly HAHAHA.

Anw, HUIYI AH. YOU DON’T HAVE LONG LONG ONE FOR WEITING BUT QUITE ALOT OF TAGS RIGHT ): whee hahaha, anw your sms in the morning made meeeee smileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :] really reallly yay i want to smile more (hinthint) HAHAHHAA

im hungry ):

Wheeeee nat! I haven’t talk to you in such a long time til you talked to me (: Anw, DON’T SAD OKAY. I don’t know how to cheer you up but actually, i know whatever i say you’ll still be sad cause it’s quite a ))):< thing. I HOPE IT’LL BE OVER SOON, and you’ll smile during tomorrow’s assembly and throughout the day and try to forget while you’re doing your biology test (: Don’t sad don’t sad! HAHAH okay i won’t write you note but will type this for you (:LOVE YOU MENTEEEEEEEEEEE DONT SADDDD OKAY : D And you really greet teachers funnily HAHA.

School was hmm interesting.  I realised i have free periods everyday HAHA damn good okay So equals to studying and more time to study. If tired=sleep sleep sleep (: Anw, prelims are coming soon and i needa like go through all the questions. Oh i’ve been coming online more recently to blog nowadays. Well. but that’s after my mugging sessions. Even though it was taxing to have many tests in a week, i think what the school did was quite good actually. I realised how time management can work miracles. And i also realised how much time i had to study for all my previous years’ tests if i studied as hard as this. Well, it’s good to know now. Better late than never. We don’t have much tests now, but it’s like one test with all the topics. Like yknow, mock papers. So chiongggggg ahh (: I guess what estee said will happen to me too. I’ll miss studying like that cause JC is a total different thing. Whee byeee

P.S. Huiyi you’re so retarded. Gave me such a short comment and go weiting’s one all like alot ): Fine la hahah. Oh anw, im just joking about all the flirting with wy thingy. Cause i know wy loves me the MOST MOST MOST. RIGHT WY, and i don’t allow you to - me ): See, i don’t even want to mention it )): HEE. Anw, you seemed to be really pissed with someone. I hope it’s not me ): Even though you said it isn’t HAHA. Whee love wifey. Okay lah, huiyi i do love you okay. I know i’ve been like going around with wanying and YOUR WEITING (happy?) but at the end, youuu areeeeee one of honeys You see! You’re under the LOVES column! ((: hee

NATTTTTTTTTTT I LOVE YOU TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO <3